Out Of Touch

Shake it up is all that we know

Using the bodies up as we go

Waking up to fantasy

The shates all around aren't the colors we used to see

Broken ice still melts in the sun

And times that are broken can often be one again

We're soul alone

And soul really matters to me

Take a look around 

You're out of touch

I'm out of time

But I'm out of my head when you're not around 

Reaching out for something to hold

Looking for a love where the climate is cold

Manic moves and drowsy dreams

Or living in the middle between the two extremes

Smoking guns hot to the touch

Would cool down if we didn't use them so much

We're soul alone

And soul really matters to me

Too much

eid is just around da corner...

now is 1.27am...
me??
busy playing game...
huhu...
my bro is now helping the folks maak dodol..
yumyumyum....
kol 3,4 bru blik kot..
biala..
janji dodol siap...
huhuh...
2morrow, i nak jadi semut(najjia say so)
hhhahaha....
wann shop at mid...
for raya i bet....
tp bukan nyer ader duit....
huhhuh...
xkisah...


to all..
i wanna wish u
eppy eid mubarak

i know..

I forgot bout the red book

Where I put it inside here and yes, yes

Last time was the last

Appearance of it

And still,

Many of books keep waiting

Thousand of pages need to open u

As all forcing me to finish

Even no strength in me

Why I need those books??

If I never use it all my life

Why I need to stay up al nite??

Is it just to pass the line?

Or is just the trend in time??

My life full with mission and vision

And I never stray about it\

And no forgiveness will be given

And whoever tries to put me down

And try to betray in any side

Because all I know is my life

Where my life is for HIM

And I know HE will help

If I’ll never give up

In time

all bout home...

eid is just around da corner....
best nyer...
and all students???
they're home all ready...
huh...jealous....
me??
still stuck in da middle of merbok...
wwaarrgghh...
jelesnyer tgok org balik....
i'll be home on friday...
ETA around 9pm....
sobsobsob.....

nak wat camne...
dari xbalik...
thanx 2 tiang....
he bought da ticket....
tok gya n i....

eerrmmmm.....
today, we went to hang somehwere in sp...
first, we went to Gayathiri...
trase cam kat bombay plak...
ngn kain yang berjela-jela.....
n sangat la cantik....
tapi harga, superb....
sakit wo0o0...
paling koman pon rm120....
huhu....

why we went there..???
adalah....
secret...
for this momenta...
x syiok la ctr skrg nie.....
but....its damn great....

we then...
we contnued to villge mall.....
huhu....
sgt kosong....
bo0osan...
pastu g jap tesco...
MpH....
buy what???
stoye book....
the astonishing ladder...
by enid blayton...
care bout what...
if dats kid stoyey...
i love it....

nak gak bace illusion gak...
tgk la cam
harry potter n half blood prince...
ctill under constuction..
huhuh

then...
soping2 sket...
hihih
pas sume mende wajib settle..
g blik v.mall....
mamam tyme....
pizza la...tp ramai gile...
gile pon xramai cam2 taw...

huhu..
pas2, jalan la jap kat F.O.S
n shopalot
sooopping...
i meant gya...
me n yaya...
hanya berangan...
hakhakhak...

lbey kuang 1/2 jam..
bru makan....
eh, apasal servce kat pizza v.mall sgt trok...
kalo wat survey...
i'll gve a lowest mark...
damn slow....
pekerja belambak...
rugi la bayar servc tax camnie...
anngkat pinggan mangkuk pon
memekak je...
org nak makn dlm keadaan
PEACE
huh...kne g traing ni
bad ethic..

ramai gak la komplen malam 2...
nasib baik ader uncle x ngamok..
makann xsampai....
siap manager kne perli'apasal lambat???lupe..??'
eating in pizza was da worst things last nite..

pastu...bercdang bli kek ngn gya....
hampeh...kek xder yg best...
durian n durian n banana...
busan la....
p/s:to manager in pizza n s.recipe...plz la...stay to the benchmark
boosa taw...

pas2...tyme tok pulang...
awal plak rasenyer...
9pm...

pe kate jalan kat BLM...
errmmm...idea yg sgt memberngsngkan
okie dokie...all agreed..
jom cri umah lec...
en raden n puan azfa...
hihih
first umah jumpe,
umah tp HEA...
hihi....

pasnie..
kami dtg raye ye sir...
lame gak pusing laguna 2..
nak give up memule...
pas2 sinar kembali..
ketka melihat kete volk biru...
wahwahwah....
pnantian yg penat....
jumpe gak umah en raden...

pn azfa??
dekat2 sini gak..
tapi jumpe xjumpe la....
hihihi....
pas2, xhengat2....
semangt sume...

now...otw blik uitm...
lalala....
ketika nak masuk..
sume ramai nak kuar...
eeee...
jeles...
xpe..esok 4pm..
my journy begin.....
home coming queen...
lalalala...

Is it???

I don’t know weather

I going to be hate it

But yes, the feed already grows

The growth of hate ness

Ooh... Yes I know,

For the hateness

I going to be blameworthiness

As I am the disaster

Am I that bad??

That entire little people

Ooh, they are to kind

And maybe,

I’d forgot

They are an angle

With the therapy

And me only

An evil with venomous

Am I that terrible??

Is that nowhere to turnover???

To fine the safest place to hide

To live in

With a bright, blooms day

Or just little tiny, dark path

Left only for me

As I am the only person

Who seems full with mistake….

all about tyme

After being someone who surrounded by works,

I realized many things, things that not all will understand it.

And I know what the real world is now.

Life that full with lying, betraying, unsatisfied, and all unpredictable moment…

People tend to give me an advice which sometimes I just take it like a wind…

Just let it passed through me…

Not because of my stubbornness but the reality that come ahead

Not all the stories need to be shared with everyone,

Sometimes, let it be a great secret for me…

Now, Becoming a person who full with title

I realized that

Many people talked bad about me…

Many people tend to be kind in front of me…

Many people take advantage on me…

Many people hate me…

All I can say is

THANK YOU very much

All of you had make me stronger than yesterday

Making me braver to face the future,

Allow me to be a better person in time,

And let me face the reality early than you…

Don’t judge me if you nothing

Nor calculating every single breath that I hale

You, the follower make me sick…

Sick to be kind-hearted

Oh, and some want me to be firm…

And thanks to the idea…

But don’t regret after transferring it,

Because I may show the real me in time…

And because…

And now

I’m in the middle of the crowd

Monitoring them to reach the star

Together giving our best performance

And together we make our the greatest sacrifice

Not only for ourselves

But for the wild passion

That always burning in our hearts

And because of the crowd

I cried and suffered a lot

And because of the status

I’ve been hated

And because of the title

I must move on to show the best in me..!!!

Life is about being alone…!!!

Now...

Its seem right

That the phrase given by Bata

‘Work in group, live alone...’

First it’s really make me said that this man was crazy

Who going to live alone man??

But after being through many things, now I’ll starts to believe

If I relate it with the behavior of the human being,

Yes, it’s true…

But people not run deeply into that phrase

Many of them will not satisfy with it.

For them, many people will bring joy and cheer the environment

But, if we look on the other side,

It the matter of number involved at time

Reasons for me to accept Bata’s point of view is

Of course I’m right now facing the entire problem in my life...

I see how and why this phase can be used???

Normally, if we learned and even in practically,

Works in group are much better as

‘The more, the merrier,

‘Two heads better than one’

Yes, it’s true…

And after achieving the goal,

All will be lonely…

Lonely in the other hand

Doesn’t me that you are alone in this planet

Yeah, you will have people surrounding you,

But, deep inside you are all by your own

It’s because many things that you can’t share all the time

After reading Bata’s article, I started to think

A lot of the given points are true

But the way the people understanding it

Will lead them to come with their on perspective

Maybe there still a lot will doubt to believe in it…

But all I can say is

Take time to listen and to understand…

We are human in this lonely planet

Are just a passes by…

The forever is not yet to come…

You will be even better in time…

“Work in group, Live alone”

Take your time…

Someday..

I found myself

Under the pouring rain

And it seems

Hopeless

As no more strength in me

And still under the rain

Without any hand helping me

Slowly I’m moving to find

The nearest shelter

To get some rest and think

Realizing something suddenly

I won’t give no more

And even I won’t break it down

As I must be strong

Even the world goes wrong

I need to believe that world

Will turnaround

Even still now it’s dark outside

And I believe that someday

All the glory is with me

All of my lovers will right besides me...

4Now, I’m listening to all the oldies song…

It’s really brought my mind far away…

Seems free from all the problems that I’m facing right now…

Now, I’m listening to Anne Murray

‘Nobody loves me like you do’

Other singers are

James Taylor, Billy Joel, Elton John,

Abba, Everly Brothers, Super tramp

Credence Clearwater Revival (what a name),

The Beatles and Elvis Presley…

Hihihihi…

Even though, the songs are around 80’s,

But for me, the qualities of each song are very marvelous

The lyrics itself has its own deep meaning

The way the writer wrote the songs was unique…

The entire phrases are in a great combination…

It’s very difficult to say by word,

But if you take time to listen and understand,

For sure, you will be addicted

Which happen to me right now…

Here are some lyrics from the songs that I’ve heard just now…

‘Could I have this dance for the rest of my life?
Would you be my partner every night?
When we're together, it feels so right.
Could I have this dance for the rest of my life?’-Anne Murray-

And she'll promise you more than the garden of Eden
then she'll carelessly cut you and laugh while you're bleeding,
But she brings out the best and the worst you can be.
Blame it all on yourself cause she's always a woman to me. –Billy Joel-

When I was young, it seemed that life was so wonderful,
a miracle, oh it was beautiful, magical.
And all the birds in the trees, well they'd be singing so happily,
joyfully, playfully watching me.
But then they send me away to teach me how to be sensible,
logical, responsible, practical.
And they showed me a world where I could be so dependable,
clinical, intellectual, cynical. –Super tramp-

And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking,
People hearing without listening,
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one dared
Disturb the sound   of silence-Simon and Garfunkel-

Errmm…

And the other…

Huh, I don’t know the real lyric…

But, it’s really made me feel like

Right now, I’m all alone, somewhere in State,

And its fall time…

Listening to all those songs…

What a dream…

And right now,

It’s about 2.30 pm

All I have to do is dream

hahaha

But I don’t think so…

I can’t sleep right now

Huh…

Errmm,

While reading an article about

‘The All-American President’

-Ronald Wilson Reagan-
life about President, huh

And still,

Those melodies are sounding from my laptop…

What a magnificent moment you know

All I can say that it’s so

RELAX

And it’s 4 in the morning

And I??

Still doing my poetry 

Which I do adore to write a poem

Wonder if I can be like Shakespeare, or Blake

Hihihi…

I do love poem…

Sure, I’m not going to sleep

Because around 4.45,

I’m going to take my ‘Sahur’

And then waiting for Fajr 

Uhuh…

Possibility after fajr,

I’ll be having forty winks

finally..

today,
i finally managed my meting with all da crew..
meting bout dinner n bout dbs club...
fortunately, as there were two meetng
i need to rush to library
at 4pm n 8.30 pm...

alhamdulillah
all i had done da best to manage the meeting..
i was a chairman n all seems went ryte
that make me feel good...

mm....
nex week,
is balik kampung pro gramme..
huhu..
sume p.k pasal langsir, kuih raya, baju raya..
all are running in my head now...
oouuchh..best nyeerrr...
hihih.....
today already 16 day, all the muslim fast
ermmm...best,,,...best...
sgt syok...

tp
assgment belambak gle...
OB n HR need to submit b4 25..
ha,....amek ko..
satu mende xwat pape lagi..
sat g...
terkbil-kbil lak nak wat...
riso2...

tp..
ntah la...
info sume dah der..
tp nak taip..
uuwwaaaggrhhh...
i need a typist ryte now..

but...
as for me..
watever things happen ryte now..
all i now.
my studies in a best track n me, maself in a good condition..

i just believe in myself that

i'm one in a million...
n i believe in it...!!!

lallalalalal

TRY

Try to clap with a hand

Unheard.

Try to reach the sky,
Untouched.

Try to be loyal,
Undone.

When you try,
Put the soul together,

When you try,
Put on the highest effort.

And when you try,
Ensure the reason why..????

created by -->norulezat

when they r not in a same shoe...!!!

firm??

wat is it??
just a combination between
f + i + R + m

some people always say to me...

"be firm"

o0oh, shut up...
do u understand wat is firm??
me??
who facing wit those problemzs do understand wat is firm...!!!


but do u know when to use it??

firm..

not all the tyme i need to be firm..
people??
huh, really hard to understand...
i do use this philosophy

" in order 4 u to be understood, u need to understand.."
hihi..think about it...

people see thing in many perspectives
me??
also have my own view...


all these managerial n leadership matter do make me grow..
i'm now see wat is waiting in front..
wat are the real world..
wat r people??
how r them?/
how to work wit them??
how to overcome them..??

do u think all these come just like that..
oh noo0o..
I've suffered more..
i do cry much...

people always make a comparison..
between me n the other...
huh...tired..

but wat much can i do??
i just a normal girl
who still trying to do something
that abnormal...
hihi

i do believe in myself...

i know who i am...


let the star arise....

people tend to be dumb sometimes

for the last two months, all seems not in their track..

Me ???

facing wit those leadership problem..huhu... really made me sick...

but thanks to my parents...
"You're always there when i need a shoulder to rely on.."

ok...lets end the story of maself...

now, lets take a look wat is happenin' surroundin' me??

for previous month,
i had been informal motivator to my FRIEND
about wat??

her life, future n obviously her luv...

but, she's so stubborn..hah...really made me bored...
everytyme, the truth is already spoken... she wont believe in it... wat a hack man... n as usually, headache, shy mole evrywhre..huuh.a.
..boring..

n the other???
seem evrythin' on da move even sometmes lost their track...

but something for sure...
for this moment of my life,...
i do believe that

wat goes around comes around...

maybe for some, its just a common phrase,
but for evryone who had faced it, will noe it better...

japan...15-23 may 2008

toon town

Malaysia embassy,Tokyo

tokyo tower hall

tod building in tokyo

its a small world

in front the restaurant

tokyo disneyland




fukiage district office...if i not mistaken..with okasan and otosan


family

nagashi somen